very emo & sad

cant stand ppl who are childish at the wrong reason, liars & inmature.. thinking tt watever i said is a fucking joke. not trying to be serious abt it, trying to be funny over it. but when tt same things happen to them they tense to expect us to listen & not to fool ard BUT the are able to. plus always telling me tt they NEVER do anything!!! telling me not to ANYHOW accuse them of it.. all is fucking BULLSHIT man!!

they think tt after all tt have been done can jus be forgiven & forgotten .. well they are BLOODY wrong abt it. doesn't mean saying SORRY or jus admitting tt they are WRONG & everything can be started all over again.. this is really not the way.

there are certain things which can & cannot be done. if u dun wan the other party to do certain things which u HATE then dun go doing it urself & expect them to accept it. all wrong!! they say one things & do another & they expect us to listen & obey them.

i am very tired.. really dunno wat is gg on in my life alr.. i jus wan to be HAPPY, izzit so hard?? i guess in life u cant expect much. the more u expect & when in never come or tt it jus came crushing down on u & u will fall really badly... then u have to start all over again, trying to pick up urself again...

"dear god, i've be praying to u evey night w/o fall but i may at time pray till i've fallen aslp or tt i totally forgotten abt it BUT no matter wat i still prays & believe in u. hoping tt u will show me the correct path & be there by my side when i needed u to be there for me, as u r the only one who understand me becos u r the wan who have given me this life. amen."