sick...

this few days my daily routine is knock off from work, go home, bath & drop to my bed till the next morning to start work again.. haven been feeling well, having cough & flu.. feeling too tired, jus dun feel like gg anywhere but to stuck myself at home.

even my dvds which i brought, i dun even have the mood to watch. its just lying there waiting for me to watch. oh man, wat am i writing.. all rubbish.

haiz, dunno y have been having bad headaches AGAIN for the past few days. so painful tt its so irritating. hopefully that i wont think so much, but i cant help myself. sometimes i really HATE myself for it. dunno y wanna torture myself for.

anyway, cant wait for tomo to come, will be bringing my son home. love him to bits.. plus am having my BTT.. pray HARD tt i will pass!!!

New hair Colour & Cut

after work went jb, City Sq with joanne & melvin. was suppose to go and jus cut our hair BUT end up both of them did colour & cut & i did highlighting & cut of our hairs.

me while doing my highlight


Joanne & melvin having their colouring


can u see our hair colour?? actually i wanted another colour BUT it turn out not the wan i wanted.. quite sad though.


cant see their new hair colour right???


after that went to eat "log log" i think tts wat it is called, its been quite long since we ate that. but it wasnt tt nice, nth much to eat too..



i look sooo FAT!!!


a new hair colour, a new hair cut, a new start of my life hopefully...

tired..

woke up, whole body aching, tongue feeling pain guess it was the vomiting, kinda having a cold & cought too, i think im gg to be SICK & of cse hang over..

actually I've thought abt the r/s, breaking up for me, was hard, unlike him. he had way toooo many r/s & break ups, so i guess for him its like eating & shitting out. the most he can jus go looking for another one & continues. yes of cse i understand tt its normal to start looking again.

but maybe for me, i find it real scare & tired, i do still think of the gd things which we did together, the things he brought for me, the things which we brought together, the time we spent together.. yes i knw tt i shouldn't be thinking abt it alr, since im the want who wanted out.. but maybe i take this things too serious. i must learn to forget, forget & to move on..

its really a torture for me, but i MUST thank him for letting me be with him to have this experiences & to see how awful ppl can be. I've learn to open my eyes bigger to see the different kind of ppl out there too, i guess i have been living in my own world for too long & never wonder out to see the REAL world.

sometimes i wonder, why is the world so complicated.. why are they so many kind of ppls out there, cant everyone jus be the same?? no wars, no torturing, no pain. but maybe we humans being are too sinful tt god have to punish us.

out with my boy & night out

Out with my Boy

ytd night fetch my boy hm, while watching his dvds he ate this bread which i feel its kinda BIG, so cute right.. mucks love him.



before gg to slp.. we really look alike.. specially our EYES

went city hall to collect my formatted XD card, then head off to bugis for lunch. bet my son was real hungry as he keep telling me tt he wanted to eat pasta AGAIN.. his fav food.

so went to Pastamania for our lunch. finally saw their kids meal there & got for him. while i had Ham & Sausago Baked Rice.

eating his fav pasta with cheese


our food


after lunch went for a walk there, saw there's a places for all kids to play kids game etc.. so played there for i guess an hour or 2 & won a water gun.. while at least he had fun..

my boy brian


then went to Bugis Village, brought 2 Tshirt for my boy & got one for myself too.. then it was time to bring him hm.. so sad

waiting for train to come.. took some pics..

On the way hm, in the train..


when i reach his hm, i felt really sad. he asked me not to go but to spent the night there, which was impossible for me.. how i wish to bring him hm with me to stay forever.. mama love you my boy Brian..

Night Out at 97

went to meet sally, haven seen her for a few mths since she gave birth.. she wanted to go chill out so we went & i asked my sisters along too..

me & sally


me & joanne


Vanessa & me


xia xia & qiqi


my sisters.. thanks for being there for me when i needed you guys to be there for..


mix of us..


had a hell of a time, drunk till puke, this is the time where all my sorrows are drown, no time to think of any unhappy things.. my mind is jus blank....

dinner @ Sushi Tel

have been hiding in my room for the past days. just wanted to be alone. but today meet ailing for dinner at Vivo City, Sushi Tel..

this pic i feel tt my face look weird but i love the back view


having our dinner


my yummy food


Mekajiki Sashimi, Hiyashi soba, Hotata miso mayo, Hanasaki Ika Tempura, Soft shell crab pasta


unfinished food.. so wasted..not tt hungry

after dinner, took some shots again


do i look happy, of cse i am or not??


with ailing


actually, gg out make me stop thinking so much.. Thanks gal.

emoing

sometimes i really wonder.. if god have planned my life, then y must he let me go through so much pain. sometimes when i see others who are like me, having wonderful life, i kept thinking y mine is like tt.. but i guess he have his reason for everything. as he is the wan who gave me this life.. i guess he have his reasons for it.



maybe sometimes i am too blinded that i didn't open my small eyes big enough to see. dreaming of fairytale which will never come true but to work hard myself to get wat i wan in my life instead of dreaming my life away..

have been having very bad headache for the past few days, my head feeling so heavy suddenly, drying my eyes out whenever im alone, cant stop thinking of everything. this is the path i have chooses but i knw god is there for me.

my main goal nw is to pass my driving license, get my diploma, get a better paying job, spent more time on my precious boy & be there when he needs me & last by not least be HAPPY...

all is OVER

i have been giving myself time to think for the past few days, thinking abt our r/s. come to think of it, we shouldn't have started it in the 1st place, then both of us wont be hurt in any ways. i can say tt he is a nice guy, able to take care of me but u need to listen to him most of the time, its like living in HIS world instead of US. have to try to adapt to living with him.

i really cant take it anymore. although it hurts badly for both of us, but i guess we are just 2 ppl fm different worlds trying hard to be together, which is imposable no matter wat. hopefully, he will find someone who is able to adapt to him.

"time will heal all pains, its only a matter of how much time we have..."

i wish u all the best in ur work & ur love life.. hopefully we can still stays as frens.

Goat Farm

today morning me, my boy, elaine & her 2 gals we head off to the Goat Farm. we miss the milking session but i guess the kids love it. nth much to see though.



me & my boy


elaine & her lovely gals


look at the goat, lucky my boy didnt look up if not he will be scare

baby goats, mama goats


brian & nichole drinking the chocolate goat milk, $2 per bottle.

after tt, nearby there's a Dragon Fruit plantation. so we then to have a look.

this are some of the plants they have then.. wanted to buy the Passion Fruit but it haven blooms yet..



i brought this 1kg for 2 pcs at $4. dunno cheap a not..

saw this cherry tree, didnt eat tt though.

after tt went to had lunch at Mac.. so sweet, look at them.. they simply love playing with each other.



headed hm for a rest then fetch my boy hm.. miss miss...

chk up

went for lunch with my boy at Ajisen, then head to kk hospital for his check up on his arm again.

every mth he go check up they will sure ask him to go for xray, was thinking my boy is still young and he keep gg for xray its not gd for him.

so asked the doc y he needs to keep gg for xray when is will heal naturally, then the doc said tt lucky i brought it up, as he said tt he wont have kind of like never went to his mind abt it.. so weird, they jus trying to earn $$ of cse they wont bother abt this.



hungry liao..


after check up with to sim lim sq to buy another extra XD card for my camera & brought my current wan for formatting at the Olympus office at city hall, then had dinner at the Soup Spoon.

Grande boston clam chowder & half smoked ham & cheese sandwiches


yummy!!


then went to buy my fav donuts..


sooo tired after a whole day out, headed hm to slp as tomo gg to Goat Farm..

relationship

have been thinking a lot abt this whole r/s. i knw tt he is very keen in getting married & starting a family but i wonder if i will make the right choice by marring him. u knw y? let me explain. the other time when we quarrel, u knw wat he will do? he will flirt online with gals, call or sms them behind my back thinking tt i dun knw wat he is doing. BUT when i found out abt it, he will give me the excuse as tt i ignore him so he thinks tt i dun wan him alr, so he will like tt.. i mean hello is this the right way??

like now we quarrel again, like having some kind of cold war between each other, then he go do the things which i HATE again on him bloody fb, to attract more gals to him. i tell u this is really a never ending story for me.

i think if one day i were to married him, then we quarrel then he go fuck ard then come back and tell me its all my fault for quarrel with him, tt i should not have done tt then nth will happen. then tell me, how am i able to trust him.. IMPOSSIBLE!!

ALL BULLSHIT!!

guess wat?? he is still talking abt his Mac book which i've smash a few mths back, then telling me tt he went to got it repair but was spoiled till unable too alr.. telling me tt he will be getting his free laptop fm starhub & asked me to pay him $300 for him to install the DVD drive.

y i smash his laptop? u think i wanted too? NOPE!! of cse not.. its becos we had a very terrible quarrel the other time tt y. and he can keep repeating it always. putting all the blame on me, saying tt i should not have slap him 1st, then he should not have beat me too. if he knw how to respect a lady then nth will happen..

so i told him i cant possible pay him the full amt asking to pay him back by installment every mth. not long after tt, guess wat he put on his msn header?? the exact words: " y can u smash a 3K laptop & cant even compensate $150 for a DVD drive". HELLO?? he didnt ask me to pay him $150 for tt drive ok!! he asked me to pay $300!!! go ard telling ppl lies!!!

and further more i DIDN'T say tt i wont pay him, i told him i will pay my INSTALLMENT!! then he started to say how greedy i was, saying tt i should be begging him for forgiveness abt me smacking his laptop, telling me not to regret wat i did.

telling me tt i can go on clothes spree etc then i cant even pay him back $300?? pls, tt was before he asked me to pay for his drive, and by nw im alr dry up. plus saying how he tolerated my temper & attitude. then wat abt me?? i have to tolerated him always adding gals on his fb & his msn is FULL of gals, tt nvm, BUT he dun allow me doing tt. thinking i dun knw wat he is doing outside beside this things. tell me then?? wat is gg on here??

always bring up things saying how gd he is to me, buying things for me, told me tt i should be graceful tt he is so gd to me despite me having a kid & haven settle my problems. i mean, if a person is gd to me, he dun have to keep repeating it to me again & again. i will knw it myself.

wat is this?? can anyone tell me??

yummy

had my craving of crab wor.. brought black pepper crab of 1kg of Rm50 abt S$21. guess it was cheap then.. not as nice as Salted egg fry with it.. i still loves tt..

Indulgz Bistro / chill out

their Menu..


went Indulgz Bistro at Bugis there to had dinner with my sisters. after ordering our food & drinks, was like waiting for at least abt 15 mins BUT our drinks were still not here yet, not even ice water was serve during tt period. we had to request for the waters plus to ask them abt our drinks.

while waiting for our food to arrive


after our drinks had arrived. we have to wait for food to arrive.. really took them real long to serve us.

our drinks, i had Lychee Liquor Thick Shake, while xia & joanne had Bailey’s Irish Crème Thick Shake & qiq had Earl Grey. is was so so cant really taste the liquor thought & mine was so creamy. for me it was not really nice.

Bailey’s Irish Crème Thick


Me with my Lychee Liquor Thick Shake


xiaixa & qiqi


the first dish to arrive was Spicy Chicken Bolognaise Melted Cheese Fries tt was good, next was Battered Calamari Rings is was so so something like swensens.

Spicy Chicken Bolognaise Melted Cheese Fries


Battered Calamari Rings


then we continue waiting for our main dish to arrived.. waited like abt 15-25 mins or maybe more.

qiqi food arrives first of Chicken & Mushroom Baked Carbonara, it was baked Carbonara with creamy sauce.. we all tasted it, then the verdict was REAL BAD. cant really taste the creamy sauce, its tasteless.

Chicken & Mushroom Baked Carbonara


again waiting time... then xia food arrives of Slipper Lobster & Wild Crabmeat Pasta.. tt was also very BAD.. not nice at all. she did not even finish up her food loh, so u can guess how bad it was.

Slipper Lobster & Wild Crabmeat Pasta



see by the look on her face, u knw wat she means right.


by the time mine & joanne wan arrive qiq was gg to finish her food.. we had Char-grilled Ribeye Steak, oh man i tell u it was not tt fascistic too. was quite chewing PLUS they didnt have steak knife for it, instead we were using tt normal fish & chips knife. it was really killing me cutting it till xia have to help me with it..

Char-grilled Ribeye Steak


me eating my steak


last was melvin food, he order Wild Crabmeat & Fresh Thyme Soup tt was GOOD.. plus Triple Cheese Baked Rice, tt was not bad too but too cheesy for me.

Crabmeat & Fresh Thyme Soup


Triple Cheese Baked Rice


Overall, i can tell u the soup was the BEST. the steak still edible BUT the baked Carbonara & Pasta was BAD. will i ever come back? i tell u, NOPE not gg back anytime soon..

was reading abt this restaurant, read abt how nice it was the food & everything BUT in the end it was such a disappointment to us plus each person abt $38.. EX and not tt nice..

can see the bill?? 5ppl for nearly $200!!!


after tt went bishan was actually gg for prawning but then it was so packed so we went to a cafe at bishan park near my secondary sch.. it brought back memories of schooling days.. plus tt cafe we always went there after sch for our smoking time..

in the end we didnt prawn


it was so fun remembering back our sch days, no worries, no headache, no nothing.. jus study, play, have fun. we chill there talking abt old days etc.. is was so nice man.. how i wish i can turn back the clock & enjoy the moment again.. wanted to take pics of my sch but it was too dark for me too.. wasted!!

my sisters, love them to bits


me with my glasses on.


really enjoy my time with my sisters.. meet up soon gals..