Aunt Talked to me

Today got a call fm my ex aunt asking me what do to with the divorce paper which my lawyer had sent to him. I told her if he want yo fight with me then he can get a lawyer if not then just leave it alone n wait for my lawyer to write to him again. She told me like tt hire lawyer not expensive meh? Said me n my ex should have just went to court n file ourselves plus say can get it on the spot the divorce paper. In my mind I'm thinking he won't loh. If he could do tt I won't need to hire lawyer n waste my money for wat.

Then she asked me do I really want this I said yes she say won't regret? I said won't. Then she still tell me tt he still love me a lot but I told her it's really over for us, if there is still love in me for him, I won't have left so many years. After tt she ask me Brian how? As my ex mum is gg for her leg operation n dun expect my ex to take care of my son. I told her I'm trying my best to look for someone to take care of him just tt I got no one n need time to find.

Although she talk to me like so nice but deep down I knw their family all blame me for leaving him. But wat can I do then? Haven I suffer enough? All I want now is to live well with my son n be happy...

P.O.P-AQ

My boss sent me for a 3 day course telling me that it's good as he just attended it. But of cse he didn't tell me wats the content of it n I didn't ask too.

It's a course created by a tawainess boss not really sure how long have it been around. Anyway I attended the want at JB instead of here as the next course in spore will be around end of next month. I went for POP AQ (Action Quotient program) course.

Let me tell u sth can. This is my FIRST time attending a Chinese course loh. All the time they are speaking in Chinese. Some I understand some I don't.

The first day there was the MOST tiring can. I feel a bit weird becos they as us to do funny funny thing loh. Like must pair us with opp sex, keep hugging, screaming ur lungs out, critring each other.

Like firstly they paired me with a guy I even dunno then have to hold his hand, scold him, hug him, movative him n share with him. After that they split us into group of 5 ppl including a 长. From there on we do a lot of things. Like got one time each of us were like screaming for ard 30-45 min EACH! have to scream out LOUD loh. Then have to do a lot of psychical thing like pressing each other on the floor, pulling each other. It's like we are fighting with each other I tell u end of the 3 days my WHOLE body is aching loh. No joke man! Till I sprained my back this is only went I'm back home then I felt it loh... Leg n arm also got bruises

On this course it might be useful for others i dun really think it's useful for me la. It's actually helping u to open up your heart letting u speak out everything which u have been keeping it inside your heart. So once they do tt I can keep seeing most of them keep crying loh. Like very emo but guess it's all from their heart la... Never once did I felt like crying only once I nearly cry was when I was watching a movie called Pay Forward tts all..

I did ask them y they all always cry n I only got feel to cry when I'm watching movie they told me tt it's becos I haven open up my heart. Dun really believe la for me. Once they knew I dun believe ALL they ppl from POP they keep talking to me ask me to believe n open my heart. But I was saying loh. I have ma... My life story dunno must say to how many ppl loh when ppl keep asking me about it. I felt kinda Out of place la, they keep talking about parents sia.. I dun have parents wor still ask me to say I love u to them. I felt kinda weird la... They will keep say your mother your father etc.. Very out of place la me...

Overall I still feel that it's useless on me la. It might be useful for others ba... It might be useful for children n I may sent my son there but of cse children n adult is different la. Not as SHIONG loh..

Make me go all the way to JB myself n back. Wat made me sad was on the graction day. My group got their own family came only me n yet my boss said he wanted to come but end up he told me got traffic jam won't be coming.. Even when coming to JB he himself said he will fetch me in end up as me take cab. Coming back I went to custom back home myself loh. Somemore I'm freaking shag as u knw the msia custom have to walk quite a disturan loh. SHAG!!

Reach spore straight went n fetch my baobei. Ppl went for this course can slp whole day on sun but me I need to teach my Bb his spelling. But of cse am happy to see my Bb n spent a day I also happy...

Tomo I won't be gg work. My back is really sprained will go see my tcm doctor.

the note book they gave us but i lost mine =(


my name =)


the course name


sign..


our seminar


this is the course i attended.. in spore also have de..


they are my group and they are discussing..


see!! i kana de... =((


cam whoring...


muhahaha....


another course they are selling to us..


discussing again..


see... crazy room key can.. so HARD to open de still have to kick the door for it to open up..


this is oue daily meal...


my room


not so gd loh.. this hotel they dun do housekeeping de wor... never see them clean our room..


monkey face..


us..


cute face...


we are cute... LOLX


4 babes...hahaha


wa liew.. look at my tummy! so BUI!


me


we are in the same group


yeah!


Group one! we win!


nice...


my cert..


end up the cert is wat we had wrote here...faint!


my group won got this love seed.


they ask us to draw our dream.. i anyhow write la... LOLX

Lawyer office gal called

today got a call from my lawyer office and the gal told me that they will be serving him the documents soon. asked me for his contact number so that she is able to inform him abt it.

dunno wan to feel happy or sad.. im very scare that they wont let me see my son.. tts the part im most worried of..

im praying very very hard that god will be by my side and help me on this...

Japan summer festival

At summer festival... Thought tt the Japanese food will be great but turn out it's a disappointment =(

DD mummy performing there..


the fun fair..

food to eat..


my baobei...


look at this curry rice?!? so LITTLE and cost $5 can! till my baobei still hungry i give me some of my rice loh...


baobei eating...


DD food.. look so not nice loh... so plain..


dd buy for us chicken to eat..


my rice.. $5 so LITTLE.. faint!


u see my sad face u knw liao loh..


DD brought for my bb this balloon for him..

Lunch at Jade Palace

had lunch at Jade Palace with my baobei.. i love their dim sum...

my blood...

keke.. otw home my baobei carry my bag for me he look so cute can... i never ask him to carry de hor...

cant believe it!!

went to fetch my boy hm but before that i the ah ma called me telling me that he had lost his elink card and asked me to make a replacement. i asked her how he lost it she told me that ytd fetch him to school she forgotten to take back the card from him.. she said she asked my son to tell me abt it but he scare as he is the want to lost it.

so once i reach his hse i asked my boy how he lost his elink how come scare dun dare to tell me, i told him if do wrong thing have to amdint no need to scare. then end up my boy told me that actually its his father who lost it not him, he told me ah ma said dun tell me that his daddy lost if not w will quarrel, at the moment i was like WTF loh..

i asked him who is the want to fetch him to sch he say its daddy but ah ma told him cannot tell me its daddy fetch him to sch but must say ah ma, funny right?? this also want to lie. still say if he tell me, i and his father will quarrel.. why of all this would i want to quarrel with him on this for?? really make no sense can!

then my baobei said all this is ah ma tell him cannot tell me de, i told him not to tell lie but end up he told me is ah ma lying not him, at the moment im so confuse loh, dunno want to believe ah ma or my son. i got so angry i asked the ah ma why she want to do this for? why want to lie to a kid and even talk behind my back to him for? end up she say my son is lying somemore she and my son is facing each other and yet she still LIE say its my boy who is telling lies to me..

you know what i believe my son and not her? becos i knw my son i keep chatting to him abt it and he keep on insist that he is not lying and then say i lie becos i go believe ah ma dun believe him not only this can, if my son is the want lying if i keep asking him abt it he will sooner or later say out but yet he keep saying he didnt lie and of cse i believe my son.

cant believe it can! teling lies to my son for fuck!! i never once say any bad thing abt them ok! i really cant let my son stay there anymore, once i get my flat i will find ways to move my son out fm there...

best is that my son kind of remember what happen between me and his father when he was 4 yrs old. he told me is ah ma told him but he remember a bit of it nia.. then i asked him he knw why mummy leave tt hse he say he knw he say becos daddy and mummy quarrel and mummy dun love daddy alr tts y i leave and stay by myself.. so i asked him this izzit ah ma ask him to say he say no, he tink himself want.

i really feel so sad for my son can, yes this is we adult problem why want to invoince my son for?? their brain are growing on their butt!!

Prayers to God

God, grant us the...

Serenity to accept things we cannot change,

Courage to change the things we can, and the

Wisdom to know the difference

Patience for the things that take time

Appreciation for all that we have, and

Tolerance for those with different struggles

Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the

Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the

Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless. AMEN!

FRIDAY the 13!!!

im so very afaird of friday the 13 becos its a damn SUAY day. i didnt want to think about it but still kinda of suay loh..

morring i usually leave my hse at 845am but today dunno of wat reason my toopit alarm clock was SLOW make me leave hse quite late that nvm walking to bus stop i NEARLY miss my bus to work have to chase loh arbo i will be LATE!

then kana traffic jam.. liew! BUT heng i wasn't late sia.. phew!

anyway, before i went to fetach my baobei back home i called him and guess wat he told me? he said that he was slping on the floor, then his ah ma slp on chair then guess who is slping on the bed? his freaking USELESS father can!

ur mother leg pain cannot walk well but u dun give her slp on the bed BUT u slp?? this nvm then my son slp on the FLOOR? funny right.. i really cannot take it loh.. i really WISH i can have the hse and bring my son along!

Stress up!!

im so stress up! fetch my son home and than his ah ma told me that since they have move quite a distance from my son school how is he going to school now.

told me that she needs to go for operation on her leg and then no one is able to bring my son to school. i asked her to ask the father to bring but she told me that he always sleep wait fetch my son to school he oversleep my son lost loh..

telling me now she have to walk to Mrt then from there take a train down, once reach still have quite a distrance to walk to reach school. i see her like that so poor thing loh.. but when i think of her bad mouthing me to my son i cant take it!

really wonder why got this kind of father want! no responsiblity for beng one! just only know how to PLAY with my son!! WTF!!! izzit so HARD to wake up stay alert to help your son??

they need me i have to help becos i LL that is my son. now i need to look for school bus which will fetch him from his hse to school if not i also dunno how liao..

i dun mind suffer BUT not my son! as he is innocent why must he suffer? so im praying very very very hard to god to help me...

Thank you

I was feeling freaking upset today after want I heard from my son. But after talking to my friends Shanice I clam down and got a better understanding...

Dunno why whenever I needed her she is always there able to give me advise which are always reasonable..

It's really great having a friend like her at times like this.. You are so far away but feel so near =)

Thanks again! Can't wait to see you soon!

Ass hole!!

Really can't believe it!! I really didn't expect the mother n son to  corrupt my son mind!! It just make me SUPER piss off!!

My son told me that they alway ask him where did I bring him go, did uncle kiss me, did he hold my hands, did he hold my breast, did we always go eat expensive food n I paid for it.. 

I mean what the hell!! Why would they go ask my son all this kind of things?? Why can't they just let me go?? Still can ask why I always kiss n hug my son.. Why cannot?? Of cse I love him that's why I do that right? Damn idiot you know.. Where got people ask this kind of things to my son want!!

I really cannot take it!! It's he is the want to ill treat me and yet still can bad mouth me to my son!!

Even if I had a bf now so wat?? Do u think I bloody hell still love u?? U n ur family pls fuck off!!

I can't take it is that I NEVER once said any bad things about them to my son why are they doing this to me?? Just trying to spoil my image for my son!

I'm freaking upset!! 

Go-Go Bambini

bring my baobei to Go-Go Bambini whereby inside there they have an Huge indoor playground for kids. found it on the website and here we go....

its not bad, can eat and then the kids get to enjoy themselves in the playground which they wont get bored of loh.. still got aircon.. shiong ah!

its at Blk 8 Dempsey Rd...

before going in.. see my baobei cannot open his eyes say too bright...

beside the restaurant is the Ben & Jerry cafe

while waiting for our food to come my baobei played his IPod Touch..

No 8 is our order number...

play and play...

then i cam whore...

nice bo? lolx

Pumpkin Soup.. not bad.

dd ordered that de..

my hambuger.. not bad but too big la.. dunno how to eat.. plus dun really like the meat..

my food..

dd food.. fish and chip..

my baobei pizzia

blur look sia..

yummy!

his pizza not bad loh..

done with our meals...

ok play time!

baobei..

climb so high..

3rd level loh.. not bad..

climb so high then slide down..

tadah!

their membership card...

this is their indoor playground..

quite cool loh..

i remember i use to play before this type of indoor play ground de..

the first level

i MISS it loh...

snap a few pic of bb

hehe...

the tab card for ordering food..

those with kids MUST come here...

my baobei IPod Touch casing.. look closely got a letter B which stand for BRIAN =)

the look of the back casing..

the pricing.. but get wat? we where there for 4 hrs plus but they only charge my baobei $17.. heng ah.. becos i want to celebration his bday then bring him come here play loh...

after that we went for Ben & Jerry...

yummy yummy...

dd and me..

baobei...

then later on we went to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner! my baobei damn cute loh.. i wanted to buy a cake for him but he dun wan end up guess wat he ask me buy for him? this steam cake sia.. damn funny can... plus the candle we buy for 20 cents too.. HAHA

machiam so poor thing loh.. no cake have to use this steam cake..

see! funny right.. 5 steam cake with a candle and we are singing birthday song for him in 3 different language! english, chinese & malay... LOLX

my baobei with his cute birthday cake!

smile...

make a wish make a wish!

there wishing...

so long loh.. he wish..

blow candle le..

no more fire..

yeah! can eat le.. kekeke

my baobei!

i cant help but keep laughing...

see the cute thing.. hahaha

this curry noodle is nice....

thats how we spent out day..