finally saw my boy

early in the morning while getting up for work had a call fm my son grandma, telling me tt she needed to go for medial check up on her leg as she had an operation on it a few mths ago. and tt no one is looking after him & i needed to register his class for next yr too & today was the last day.

so i hurried there this morning. went to my son sch to register, then brought him for breakfast at MacDonald. he had hotcakes happy meal while i had the mcgriddles breakfast. later on have a rest at hm & head off to kiddie palace, my son FAV place

my swollen eyes, haiz






my son took this mess


after our breakfast, took some cute shots


had a happy time with my boy.. trying to forget all the unhappiness on me, didn't wan to think too much.. real tired....

very SAD day

in one day all the sadness just came pouring onto me.. y?? found out wat he did again to me.. saying tt is all my fault tt he did things behind my back again... y must it keep happening time and again.. y am i so suay... feeling very very sad now.. no one will understand how i feel..

my son called me today.. feel happy and sad.. miss him a lot.. so nice to hear his voice calling me mama, talking to me on the phone... all i care abt is myself, never care much abt my son.. never spent enough time with him..

feel so sad today... so much have happened....

be STRONG!!

I need to be STRONG for myself and my son, but feel tt im getting weaker each day… now on, i MUST work hard to earn $$ for my future.. cant rely on anyone else but myself.. dun wan to give so much hopes on some things, BUT in the end it just crush down hard on me..

have to STUDY hard to pass my diploma.. god i really need ur strength and ur wisdom for everything nw.. ur the only one i'm praying to everyday to show me the way of my life towards my future...

suddenly feel so sad... y can't i just let a smiple and happy life... can't blame anyone BUT myself..

Relationship Quiz & Love Test

Love Quiz results of shirley Dear shirley,You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he/she knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him/her. Let your partner know that you love him/her and appreciate that he/she does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him/her what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close and loving one. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work. Relationship and Love Advice at Love-Sessions Do the love test yourself at Love-Sessions.Click HERE.

JB

went JB as usually on wkend.. had breakfast of bak kut teh at a famous shop which only sells tt & sesame chicken.. wasn't tt hungry as ytd night ate so much, stomach was still bloated..

sesame chicken, bak kut teh, tofu, salted veg


after tt went Jusco, as he said tt he wanted to want movie.. so we went and watch the Forbidden Kingdom. staring Jackie Chan & Jet Li.. thought tt was a serious movie but it turn out to be some sort of comedy kinda of like Walt Disney movies.. overall to me it was alright, quite a good laugh though..






after tt went and do my FIRST medicure.. hee not tt bad cost me RM35 dunno izzit cheap a not.. next time round, i wan to do design on it..

before i did my medicure


finish job.. nice?


my receipts


pics of the sweet & cute me.. haha ps: praising myself

OMG!

woW.. have been reading some bloggers blog.. kinda feel tt i'm OUTDATED alr.. so out of fashion like an aunt now.. sob. and i'm only 24 this yr!! oh, man.. actually i always felt tt i dun really knw how to dress up most of the time.. seeing some of my frens who dress up, looks so pretty & nice i myself really envious them.. really dunno my fashion... can someone help me!! haha..

i really need to do some SHOPPING!! its like so many mths since i last buy some clothes for myself..

choosing a husband

guy A told the wife tt if they were to get married & were to buy a condominium, he wont put her name on tt hse if she is not paying for the household or payment for the hse. so either the wife have to work hard to earn more $$ so tt she is able to help out or she jus will have to stay in a hse w/o her name & dun have to pay anything for it.. when the wife asked for her name to be put there, guess wat the guy said, saying tt she is greedy & have motive, jus want his $$ not him. but to a gal, she wan security too. cant the guy give it to her if he really love the wife he will do anything for her right.

guy B told the wife that if they were to buy a hse together she dun have to pay anything if she dun have the $$ and he will still put her name on the hse w/o her even asking him to do tt for her, he some more even open a joint bank account and he secretly put his saving there w/o her knowing it too.. anything she wants or if she needed $$, he will just give it to her & never even thought tt she is out cheating his $$...

for me, i think a guy have to take care of the wife & most of the things IF the wife is unable too & NOT becos she dun wan too.. not always talking abt money..

if everything were to be 50-50 then the guy have to go look for a wife who is rich & of the same rank as him...

which guy would u choose then huh??

Personality Profile Test: How do others see you?

my score 33

Other people see you as sensible, cautious, careful, and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or too easily, but someone who is extremely loyal to the friends you do make and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize that it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but, equally, that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is broken.

http://www.gagirl.com/quiz/personality.html

Polo Ralph Lauren

my fren came back fm her Batam Spa trip at spa villa, KTM Restort. said tt she got bitten by a monkey twice at there and have to go to the hospital and was giving injection on her leg.. and somemore is on her birthday.. guess the monkey wanted to give her birthday present too.. haha. said tt she will never go there & hate monkey!

i went there twice but didn't even see any monkey, she told me tt they said tt the monkey hates ladies.. wonder if tt monkey was a female want?

got her to get for me their Polo Ralph tee over there, cost 449,000 rupiah=S$55.. this time the quality was quite bad.. not tt nice, brought white colour with the Japan flap. and the white look quite dull..

front

back

You are The Empress

did some test at this is wat i got back, said tt i'm the Empress...

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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What Tarot Card are You?

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tv spoil~extension of eye lashes

my room tv spoil... sob... can't watch any of my dvds anymore... so square right this tv.. haha anyone wan to donate tv to me.. keke

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chatted with one of my fren today, asking me if i wanted to do extension of eye lashes.. saying tt its very nice, cost abt $58 and can last for about one mth.. but have to be careful when washing the face, try not to wash tt area or rub it.. dun have to put mascara or eye liner too.. hmmm, tempted to try out

stress...

been thinking a lot lately.. feel so lost.. feel so sad.. feel so depress.. feel so tired.. told him abt my feelings but he said tt i'm stressing him when he is dame stress up with him work alr.. do u think tt i wan too? of course not right, but i can't help it tts y. can never stop thinking of wat he is doing, after so much happened.

then can anyone tell me wat do to then?? when i'm down wat must i do? when i'm sad wat must i do? when i'm depress wat must i do? pls tell me!!

i bet even if u tell me, tts nth u can do abt it..

I think i'll just push my feeling aside and fake a smile through every second of this pain, yeah, Im fine. Dun worry about me. It only hurts when I BREATHE
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there was a guy who said tt he really loves u alot, telling u tt no matter wat he did outside he will still come back to u... then wat is the wife then? a fucking dumb ass!! just sitting at hm waiting for tt fucking husband of her's to flirt ard, have fun outside and come back to u?? BUT i guess this is not wat a gals want fm the man she love right.. telling her tt is NORMAL for guys to be like tt, so long as they came back to their wife or gf.. saying tt some of the wife or gf dun mind being like tt, as long as their heart is with them.

well to me, it is FUCKING WRONG for a guy to be like tt... totaly wrong, all wrong... how can??

WORST day of my whole life

ytd he finally gave me wat i asked after all the nonsense he did.. i'm not happy or sad abt it.. still can't forget wat he did. then suddenly asked for mine and i refused.. why? not becos i dun wan to or i did anything. jus wanted him to know how i felt the other time. but wat he said to me, saying tt he already gave me wat i wanted & this is wat he gets? hello? wat this?? after flirting ard gave me wat i asked & i must give him wat he wants??

doesn't he have to gain my trust again as tt was wat he said to me b4.. he was so piss off with me not giving him wat he asked, then he started to shit on my face, giving me tt kind of look. i was piss off too, like he was treating me like DIRT!! wat am i then huh?? then some terrible things happened between us, so bad & piss off tt i smack his laptop till is spoil.. now my left ear is a bit deaf...hopefully it will get away soon.. don't know y must we fucking quarrel over this fucking shit... god pls give me an answer...

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woke up this morn.. body ache.. can't go to work & my ear still deaf.. arrrhh!!! went to see the doc, gave me some vitamins called Neuroforte, saying tt if it doesn't get well will have to go NUH, gave me the appointment letter for it.. hopefully i will get well soon.. spent 38 bucks for tt..

hong kong cafe

went for lunch at a hong kong cafe with my boy... he had wanton mee with 5 big wanton and guess wat, he actually finish all of it and tt was a serving for an adult.. my boy is growing big.. haha

wanton mee


for me i had this ham & cheese toast... not bad...


after tt brought him hm.. so sad.. going to miss him alr.. love u my boy..

Suicidal Mind

feel so sad, hurt, stress up with r/s.. why can't it be smooth sailing??? why must he keep lying to me times again & again? am i a dumb ass? or just a stupid fool?? whatever things u do, fucking think tt i don't knw.. y can't u just tell me the truth??? scare of me scolding u, but u keep doing things behind my back.. there will never be any ending to this... don't keep saying tt u did all this is becos i keep scolding u.. and even if i scold u, i dont think this is the right way of handling things. a leopard can NEVER change its spot...

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past few wks have been feeling unhappy, stress up with r/s. becos time & again he cheated on me, flirting ard with gals online. y u want to knw? let me explain. after catching him, he would say tt its becos i kept scolding him of wat he did and he will start his nonsense again. do u think its so easly forgotten everything & straight away start a new fresh forgotten everything he did?? its mental torture to me. have u ever thought of wat happen abt me b4 i meant u, keep bring up the past, its just like me now u know. do u think i like to keep quarreling?? just stop all ur fucking nonsense & let me have some time to forget wat u did. y must r/s be so complicated?

my bao bei

brought my son hm ytd night.. miss him much much.. mama love u my bao bei.. went for lunch at swensen again.. my boy just love spaghetti.

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yucks i hate this green thing


hmmm, some chesses will be nice..


and i had their season special fiery crab grilled fish.. it was not tt nice as wat the name for it though.

my meal, not tt nice..
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after a long day out.. my boy is so tired tt he watch his cartoon till he slp... so sweet... miss the old days when i can everyday slp with my son.. so nice... thinking of it make me so sad tt i cant be with him 24/7....

Diploma in Business Administration (LCCI)

did a called to BMC centre to check abt my result for my Practical Computing one of my 3 modules but is still not out yet, faint.. i guess i dont have to think too highly abt passing tt. i've got till end of next yr to pass all my modules for this diploma.. haiz

nw i've alr forgotten most of wat i've learn.. asked the lady if i were to reapply to sit in for the modules in class, told me each module will cost abt $450. So ex!! exam papers will alr cost me each abt $100+.. Shit man, see wat i got myself into.. should have went for classes and study, now have to study myself.. dont knw if i'm able to pass all 3 modules.. better pray hard that i will if not all my $$$ is wasted...

movies

i just love CSI Las Vegas.. every time i watch it, it keeps me gravy for the next episode.. jus watched finish the whole of season 7.. thinking of getting all of their seasons..hee

CSI Las Vegas

now am watching Nip & Tuck season 5.. guess i really need to collect all seasons of my fav movies..

Nip & Tuck


Next is Prison Break Season 3.. still waiting for the full episode to be out..

Prison Break

sleepless night lately

keep feeling insecure.. don't know why. guess its becos he keep saying that he will give me wat i've asked from him. but till now he still haven give it to me. didn't want to ask him again & again. so sick of it.. wat he wants from me i gave..telling me that he will be faithful to me & that i'm all to him. but i still feel insecure.. deep down inside me, i feel lost, confuse, alone..



i bet you will think that i'm thinking too much or whatever. sorry it can't be help, i will keep thinking of everything you are doing.. being paranoid in everything. all i want was for you to give me wat i've asked & tts not hard.. but u keep dragging it making me feel terrible. keep thinking a lot.. i know that you are stress up with you work, didn't wan to bother u abt my feelings. i've learn to hide my feelings well now. unhappy, sad or whatever, it's all hided well inside of me..

work

Finally at my new work working place am able to use internet freely.. hee becos my ex comp, they actually have a system to BLOCK website which they didn’t want us going too.. oppss, not talking about porn webby here hor..

my ex comp they tense to block website they FEEL that’s its not work related.. so boring u knw.. can’t even surf net even when I’m having my lunch.. but although now am able to surf, that doesn’t mean I don’t have work to do. I do too..

Have been doing some data entry at work.. sitting the whole day till my back is cramp.. but overall for now, its still much much BETTER then my ex comp..

hurt & sad

How many times are you able to forgive ppl who said that everything they did is for you? How much they love you? Let me tell you something, will forgive BUT real hard to forget every single things. Want me to be nice, sweet, caring & understanding and whatever you name it, but its hard, not becos I dun want too but I need time.



Have to start to try to trust & have faith again when you are afraid of doing it. Afraid of being hurt once again. How many times to i need to be hurt times & again. Have you ever put urself in my shoes? To feel how I felt? I bet u didn’t thats why I’m hurt like that. Whatever things you dun like me doing I didn’t do, but wat did I get back instead? Something to hurt me back. I knw you treat me gd but that doesn’t mean you can do this kind of things to me, nw i myself do not knw if this love of urs is true

God, when will it end? What have I done wrong? I just want to live happily that’s all….

我老了。。

went to this clinic at woodlands called Yim Clinic.. heard from shanice that the facial product they are sell are not bad.. my face having some pigmentation, arrhhhh at this age!!! OMG!! i am growing OLD... didn't take good care of my face, see this is wat i get.. PIGMENTATION!!!

went to see the doctor, asked me if i wanted to go for laser treatment to remove all of them. said tt it cost for abt 2-3k for 5 session and confirm all of them will disappear.. crazy man!! so ex!!

in the end, i jus ask her for the brighter cream for the face.. told me tt will take me quite awhile to get reat all of them.. tts was fine with me.. ps: do i have a choice? haha and tt cost me 60 bucks for a 30ml cream.



check out their webby http://www.drbenjaminyim.com.sg/index.html

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ok let me tell u guys wat i did on my face daily..

1. tone my face using L'Oreal whitening
2. then put on my brighter cream (take quite a while to dry up)
3. put on my Pond's moisture
4. lastly my L'Oreal UV perfect SPF 50/PA+++

is there any steps i miss out? do let me knw.. all my product i use is cheap except tt brightener cream..haha

1st day of work..

Today my 1st day of work.. nothing much to do jus typing some invoices..

guess wat, there were only 4 office workers including me and 2 bosses ard.. faint. So quite. Even lunch was packed back to eat as I heard tt there is only one coffee shop ard..

ate by myself on my desk as I’m the only want sitting separating fm the others :( no one was talking, all are busy working.. so the office is really silence.. sit till my buttok cramp..

my desk


legs also cramp, morn have to walk abt 10mins to the bus stop tt nvm.. after reaching, have to walk UP the hill to my office of another 10 mins.. faint.. by the time i reach my office, my make up on my face have alr melt down.. so hot wor..